The Meaning Behind Repressing the Crazy
Hi, I am Taylor of Repressing the Crazy.
Most of the time, I am on my blog sharing recipes, lifestyle tips, anxiety management tips, home decor ideas, etc. But, I have never really talked about myself in terms of the big picture.
If you are longtime readers, you know I have dogs. You also probably know that I am busy – like all the time.
But other than that, I really haven’t shared very much on here.
I am from a town with a population less than 200 in the very northern part of Texas. I grew up hunting, fishing and playing in hay bales. My mom taught me how to cook, clean and fix things; and my dad taught me about construction and how to take care of myself.
I also grew up with four siblings – and I was the oldest. Being the oldest taught me to be patient (although that didn’t come until much later), and it taught me how to take care of other people. In all of my friend groups. I ended up being “the mom” friend.
Taking care of other people has always given me peace. This comes to something else you probably already know me, I have an anxiety disorder. I have tons of coping mechanisms – taking care of people (or my dogs), watching an absurd amount of television, walking miles without end, cooking, working on this blog, etc.
When I created this blog, I was having really bad panic attacks. I would stay up all night researching meaningless things, and my legs always felt restless. During all this researching on the internet, I figured I might as well start writing.
The next question was what would I write about.
Most people want to write about themselves, but who wants to read the chronicles of a typical, boring college student.
I had always joked that my mom was Pinterest before Pinterest even happened – she made all of our Christmas ornaments when I was little. I figured if I used some of the things my mom did with all of the things I knew about makeup and hair, I could create something people would want to read.
When I started, it was rough. I didn’t have any equipment, and I knew nothing about blogging – I didn’t even think to search it on Pinterest. I would just create videos and posts on what products I was using or how I did my hair. I would even do posts on my nail polish of the day (who wants to read that).
My turning point was when I moved to Alabama. I had no friends and family, so all of my free time was dedicated to my blog. I was posting 9 times a week – including on Youtube. My content still wasn’t at the level it is now, but the sheer quantity was incredible.
I wrote my most popular post – Essential Oils Guide – during this time. When I moved back to Texas, I started to understand the blogging game more. Every post needed to provide something to the reader (which is ironic because this post does not), and my product got better and better.
However, I made some of the best friends I could ask for, and I got my dream job. Continuing my blog became harder and harder.
Then my sister moved in with me and joined me on this little adventure. She motivates me to keep going and to meet my deadlines.
And then when we sit down to talk about what to post in April and have no ideas because we have done 4 months of great content, she suggests I tell everyone about myself.
I love movies, Netflix, creativity, caring for the environment, volunteering, fashion, animals, Coke Zero, cooking and so much more. That is why every post on Repressing the Crazy is so different – and that’s why no matter how many times people told me to pick a niche, I couldn’t do it.
So, I am still here – churning content like a hamster and juggling everything at once. Oh, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
